October 19, 2008

i can not cope.

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October 1, 2008

I don’t know what I want anymore.

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September 30, 2008

All these messages I can’t bring myself to send. Just to simply say, I miss you and I regret that I threw away what we could of had.

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September 25, 2008

future body modification plans.

stretch septum to 14g.

belly button piercing.

industrial

dermal anchor?

Anyway it’s the weekend soon. Doing my art btec course has made me realize i prefer textiles and photography. Being made to draw and paint on a strict deadline is making me hate it. I don’t know. I have such a love/hate relationship with art, right now.

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September 20, 2008

Sometimes this is not enough. I want to walk out my door, turn left and be in new york. I want to find someone new. Cause I still don’t fit anywhere. I’m sorry I’m not indie enough. Or that I don’t fit into a nice little group. That I don’t look how is expected. And I’m sorry I don’t care enough. I know I wear ridiculous things and you think I care. I don’t and I’m sorrry if you thought I would find my thing and dress like that everyday and listen to that music everday because I didn’t and I don’t see why I need to. Too many ands. I don’t care, I’m not trying to be perfect. But sometimes I really wish I was. Whats the point though, I can’t please everyone. I’ll never be popular and I will never fit. How ever nice I am and how hard I try to please. I give up. I’m pretty sick of caring.

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September 18, 2008

I never post anymore apparently. well there isn’t much to say.

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September 7, 2008

sometimes i think countries are too far apart.

‘wish you were closer <33’

‘m2 m2 :( <3’

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September 1, 2008

a 'love' poem of sorts.

You are unaware of my sincerity,

And weak responses; rephrasing

My feelings, give me no knowledge.

Yet I am writing you a poem,

With words that are too long

And take too much time,

To simply just state:

I want to be with you.

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August 31, 2008
  • vision of tokyo: ALSO
  • vision of tokyo: I LIKE BRENDON'S HAIR
  • beczor: LOL WHAT. HOW IT IS NOW. WITH THE SHORT BANGS.
  • beczor: ?
  • vision of tokyo: YES
  • beczor: BUT HE HAS A BIG FOREHEAD
  • vision of tokyo: SO?
  • beczor: LOL
  • beczor: OMG ARE YOU JUST DISAGREEING WITH ME TO ANNOY ME
  • vision of tokyo: NO
  • vision of tokyo: ;_;
  • beczor: LOL OKAY THEN
  • beczor: either way its the fact it looks like he did it himself
  • beczor: its not even well done okay
  • vision of tokyo: TRUE
  • beczor: lol
  • beczor: but really idgaf cause his face is amazing he doesnt even need hair
  • beczor: like
  • beczor: if he was bald
  • vision of tokyo: AHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAH
  • beczor: i would still tap that
  • vision of tokyo: NO
  • vision of tokyo: NO
  • vision of tokyo: NO
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August 26, 2008

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She’s black endeavours

And London’s worst weather.

I guess it’s always better

With smoke in your lungs

And a crack in your moan.

She’s bare skin Fridays

And the slip slip slide

Of forced intimacies.

I guess it’s best to smile,

There’s nothing to do for a while.

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